Waiting.

God has a plan for me right? I follow the signs and do what I think is right... and I am still seeing myself in a place that I am walking in circles over and over.

I am starting to think that God's "plan" for me really sucks. I need a plan B.

Waiting, that is all I ever seem to be doing. Waiting to start a job. Waiting for school to start. Waiting to have enough money. Waiting for the next show. Waiting for a friend to call.
I take initiative am and still stuck waiting.

Now.....I won't be a liar. Waiting has paid off for me at times. I tried and waited long enough and Ted finally came around. That is the only good one that I can think of right now.

Being 19 is such an in between age.
Setting the snowflake in motion is much more simple than waiting for the snowball at the bottom of the hill.